Archive for May, 2013

say it now

Friday, May 31st, 2013

  When my grandmother died of cancer while I was in junior high school, I couldn't understand the slow, painful decay of her body. She had been one of my closest relatives, like a second mother to me, after my parents' violent divorce. I had learned a great deal from her, ...

Strive but do not Identify with the Struggle

Thursday, May 30th, 2013

  As I journal the words, "Don't let your struggle become your identity," I imagine the absence of strife, and prepare for holding my attitude upon that state. I've fought all my life against trauma and abuse, against obesity and disability, against poverty and scarcity. But do something long enough and you ...

Be the Mountain: Stand Under.

Wednesday, May 29th, 2013

Pulling my baseball cap over my eyes to remain unnoticed, I snuck away from the venue to train, as I usually do. Without my morning and evening workouts, I often suffer pain, fatigue, memory loss and diminished capacity to perform my responsibilities. But, counter-logically, if I do these two workouts, ...

When you feel pushed over -> pull

Wednesday, May 29th, 2013

Sorry for my absence, as I've been out of town running a protection detail. Through a great team, and my teacher's guidance, I've learned a great deal from the experience. Hundreds had crowded forward to get a final glance or touch of the famous humanitarian teacher of peace, a woman who ...

Agony and Ecstacy Require the Same Amount of Work

Thursday, May 23rd, 2013

She laughed in my face when she answered the door saying, "You thought I was serious? What a joke!" Then, slammed the door in my face. At 14 years old and still very overweight, I had ridden my bicycle 24 miles down the highway on a flat tire to get ...

Don’t take the prison with you after you break down the door.

Wednesday, May 22nd, 2013

Often, the new "wellness revolution" generation holds good intentions but incorrect assumptions. We rightfully kick down the doors prohibiting access to our natural state, but then forget that our prior perspective needs to expand to the frontier we've opened. Twenty years ago, we acted upon our suspicions that something was "wrong" ...

Develop from your Negatives

Wednesday, May 22nd, 2013

  Sometimes, we scoff thinking, “I’m too old for that.” Then, we are right. The same with any of the "Terrible 2s" - too fat, too tired, too dumb, too weak, too ugly, too poor, too, too..., too late. If you think you’re too anything, then you are. However, if you ...

Between the Mind and Heart

Tuesday, May 21st, 2013

  I met my wife in 1994 when she signed up for my martial art school, while she was still in high school, just a baby of 17. She excelled and became a national champion Sambo fighter within a year. We had obvious chemistry between us, but as a policy I ...

Captain Scratch Face

Monday, May 20th, 2013

  "You kids ready to have a great day today?" "Yes," my son and daughter resounded in stereo! I continued, "I'm excited to come see your play today at school!" My son said, "Thanks Dad, but don't forget to shave your face in case any of the other parents or teachers, or any kids ...

Remember What Nothing Feels Like

Monday, May 20th, 2013

I cried for my mom to give me the final piece of milk toast at dinner, because I was still so hungry. She smiled and handed me the last piece. I hadn't known that she had not eaten at all yet. She worked two full time jobs, but because of ...