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wiggy1
01-27-2006, 07:19 AM
First let me start by asking you to forgive me if what I am about to say is overly repetitive of other information posted on the forum. However, some of us learn at a much slower rate and sometimes it takes a different point of view to get things to sink in. As Coach Sonnon says, “We are all alone in this… together.” Although we all have different paths to follow, I have learned as much from other people’s experiences as I have from the various RMAX products and resources. So I would like to share my story in the hopes that it might help someone else, especially someone who is new to the forum and finds the overwhelming amount of (sometimes unfamiliar) information presented here as confusing as I did when I first came to RMAX. With all that said, on with the story.

I have been exploring and experimenting with RMAX for almost two years now. My journey with RMAX to this point has primarily been more of a mental battle. A battle intended to defeat the many personal demons that I have acquired through the years. I have encountered my share of both successes and failures in this battle and many ups and downs. However, there was one demon that I just couldn’t seem to conquer - that of self-image. More precisely, the idea of self-image generated by too many years of trying to fit into the fitness industry’s standard of fitness – Physical appearance, Level of strength determined by how much I can bench press, etc. The list goes on. It is a message that most everyone is familiar with. No matter how hard I tried though, this type of thinking continually invaded my RMAX training. “Are my reps high enough?” “Am I doing enough sets?” “I’m too weak, I should be using a heavier Clubbell!” On, and on and on. I just couldn’t break through that ceiling. There was still something missing, something distorting my thinking.

Two weeks ago I signed up for my first series of yoga classes. Not sure why, it just felt like it was the right thing to do. So I followed my intuition and just jumped in, hoping that maybe while practicing yoga something would click, and my questions would finally be answered. Last night was the first class. About an hour before the class, in a moment of typical personal neuroticism, a thought entered my head that sent me into an immediate panic. Like a nervous little child looking toward the first day of school, I began to wonder – What if the instructor asked me why I was there? What did I hope to get out of yoga? How on earth was I supposed to answer that?! I wasn’t entirely sure myself why I was there! How was I to explain all the questions that I couldn’t seem to find answers to? How was I to explain my long journey through RMAX to this point? And that as hard as I was working there was still something missing? Then in a miraculous moment of utmost clarity the answer came to me – Why? To gain peace and joy and health and strength through the disciplined practice of physical movement. WOW!!! I was immediately impressed (with a great deal of sarcasm and self-deprecation) by the deeply poetic and philosophical response I was able to muster. But did I fully understand all of the implications that it made? So I said it again, and again. And the more I said it, the more it made sense. This was not only the answer of why yoga, but also why RMAX. To gain peace and joy and health and strength through the disciplined practice of physical movement. That was it. That is what RMAX is to me. The ceiling was immediately lifted. I could hear the coffin being closed, finally laying to rest the fitness industry modality that I had been so entrapped in. Could it be that simple? Yes, it could. For that simple sentence completely engulfed, and clarified (for me) many of the driving principles behind RMAX. But how? So I broke it down, comparing the pieces to RMAX principles (as I understand them):

To gain peace and joy and health and strength- Sounds like Flow to me!! And also the “fitness” goals of RMAX as outlined by Coach Sonnon.

Through the disciplined practice- Daily personal practice; incremental progression; incremental sophistication; baby steps; stick with it and it will come, but you MUST stick with it and proceed in a structured (disciplined) manner.

Of physical movement – Not just a specific art, or style, but any physical movement. Self-mastery of ANY movement.

The results of such a breakthrough were almost immediate. No longer will I get on the scale every morning, obsessed with what it says. No longer will I look in the mirror and be depressed or frustrated because I am not looking at the fitness industry's ideal “beach ready body”. That is no longer what it is about. That is no longer what I am aboutl. This morning, my Intu-Flow session was phenomenal. Finally, this session was for me. It was not performed out of blind faith that I would achieve the results that Coach promised without fully understanding what those results were (I now knew what those results would be). It was not done merely as a warm-up because that is what I “should” do. It was not about how many reps or sets of each movement I could do. It was not a session of frustration because I was not as far ahead as I felt I should be. It WAS about reaping the benefits that come from developing the mental and physical attributes that are required to “master” a specific movement. Did I “master” each and every movement? Absolutely not, not even close. But now I know that it doesn’t matter that it didn’t happen today. Through disciplined practice it WILL come. And the benefits - peace and joy and health and strength, do not come as the destination of the journey, but are found and nurtured along the journey itself. The journey IS the destination.

The beauty of RMAX is that everyone can make it their own, and this is how I made RMAX mine. And it has enabled me to slay yet another powerful, personal demon. I am now ready to take my training and my life to the next level and I know that success will come.

Scott Sonnon
01-27-2006, 07:55 AM
Brian,

Can you post this to Your Success Story, and to the Member Article Archive, as it would make a great addition to CST Magazine.

SteveB
01-27-2006, 09:21 AM
"Through disciplined practice it WILL come."

It's even deeper than this. Disciplined practice, and the ability to accept each day's efforts, and to flow within those efforts with joy, IS what you've always been looking for. The weight loss, martial skills, muscles, etc etc are by-products of walking a valid physical Path. The walk itself is the actual reward. Notice the changes. Enjoy them...after all, we only have our bodies for a short while. The emotional/mental/spiritual discipline is the actual goal. Fitness is "just" a nifty perk.

Steve

Scott Sonnon
01-27-2006, 09:24 AM
Steve,

Most eloquently and succinctly stated as I've ever read it written!

wiggy1
01-27-2006, 11:02 AM
"The emotional/mental/spiritual discipline is the actual goal. "

That is how I think I am now seeing it, (I was not able to express it so succinctly and eloquently). So then the physical movement is just one "option" to use as a target for focusing the disciplined practice?

Chuck Kechter
01-27-2006, 11:05 AM
Brian,

Exactly!

Nice Post!

Scott Sonnon
01-27-2006, 11:08 AM
Brian,

As is said, "there are many yogas, not just hatha [physical]". I look at everything I do as an opportunity to deepen my practice: my deliberate parenting with my children, my conscious loving with my spouse, my intentional interaction with my friends, my responding to posts, writing articles, books, producing DVDs, presenting lectures, preparing and cooking a meal, selecting my clothing and packing my gear for the day's needs and demands, practicing stillness, praying, honoring our home through cleaning, giving love to our cat, Max... everything is an act of disciplined practice, for me.

And the more that I become disciplined in conscious evolution, the better things seems to flow for not just me personally but everyone in my proximity.

Joseph David
01-27-2006, 11:22 AM
Well done Brian.
Beautiful words backed by conscious actions.

Connie Brown
01-27-2006, 01:14 PM
Yes Brian. But I would call it a BIG breakthrough. I could feel the switch from anxiety to confident joy, even from here.

SteveB
01-29-2006, 09:43 AM
Eight-limbed yoga goes includes service, meditation, renunciation, breathing, and exercise. Any of these doors lead to the same Path. The advantage of using the physical practice is that
1) Feedback is quite rapid--moment to moment, in fact. and for those of us who use martial arts for this aspect, the "punishment" for lack of attention is a bit of pain/discomfort, which acts as a Zen roshi whack across the shoulders. Pay attention!

2) The quality of the practice is observable at a distance. A good teacher can lead an entire class through an exercise, and by watching the eyes, the facial tension, and listening to the breathing, know who is in "flow" and who is not.

3) At the very least, you get fitness! The increase in ego-boo alone can help heal wounds. But in a more evolved sense, one gains energy to give to your loved ones or pursue your interests. You provide a role models for others trapped on the comercial "fitness" treadmill. You polish the wrapping on the gift you give your lover. Yum. If you choose a discipline which calls for increasing complexity, you are also learning to pattern that energy. If the discipline also calls for increasing sensitivity, you create the potential for mastery through Instinctive Designation of Energy and Attention (I.D.E.A.).

4) Choose the activity carefully, and you can also remove fear reactivity. As you do this within a balanced matrix, you will AUTOMATICALLY progress to deeper/higher/subtler levels of progression, triggering what might be called "Self Directed Human Evolution" or the raising of the "kundalini." Or, more simply, progress through Maslow's hierarchy of human needs to greater levels of awareness and contribution.
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the physical is a perfect place to start. The only superior doorway is the human heart. I strongly suggest you NOT try to enter the path of growth through the intellect--it is simply not powerful enough a tool for the job.

Steve

Robert V
01-29-2006, 10:14 AM
Well said, Steve!

Good Luck, Brian. You are "ahead" of the game.

wiggy1
01-29-2006, 04:41 PM
Steve,

Thank you so much for your replies and insights. I finally feel like things are starting to make sense (now I REALLY wish I would have continued my brief stint with MA 15 years ago. Oh well, better late than never.) And I really wish I could make it to "The Path" workshop. Hopefully the seminar will make it to the East Coast real soon.

Connie,

Confident joy- YES!! But also a strong sense of freedom. I finally feel like I am choosing my own path, one that fits me and who I am. Not trying to follow someone else's wrongfully guided interpretation of what the human experience is all about.

Thank you all for your comments, they have been very warmly received.