I would like to clarify an issue. In doing so I need to put out some personal information. I’m not making excuses; just trying to clarify why I’ve been acting in an inappropriate manner. That is:
“Private messaging other coaches and instructors to get answers you were told you were not going to receive.”
I need to start what brought me to RMAX in the first place. My Shodan Rank Exam. I needed an edge. The Coaches/Instructors and Tribe members have been excellent at helping me prepare for this. Why it’s so important is a long story, involving the passing of my Head Instructor. Why I need the edge?
I suffered several injuries. Lumbar at work. I’ve been trying to weasel around the advice RMAX Coaches and Instructors have been given me, about fixing the problems with my lumbar, while trying to use CST to improve my TMA. Then I got hit with a reduction in force at work, and took a nice pay cut, and got thrown into a very physically and unhealthy position. My job is the anti-CST. Trying to adapt has been very difficult. I’ve still been looking for “tricks and secret training methods” in CST.
The RMAX TGM, taught me the opposite. I’ve been trying to use my Bells, to give me an edge. Against the advice of the Coaches. If I am daily loading my joints improperly at work, why can’t I load them properly when I get home? Won’t that help me with improvements for my Exam? I wanted an answer that I was not given, and kept asking. I apologize to all those involved.
I’ve learned a lot, and even thought I have my bells, I haven’t used them. I practice cleaning the slate daily, and work on Be Breathed, and Intu-Flow®™. I learn and study, and still practice my TMA. Not as much! Trying to get the slate clean first, but…. that’s an ongoing process!!!
I am increasing my TMA training, despite knee problems. My Lumbar is coming along fine, but I have good days and bad days. Does and will this cause more problems? Yes. So why?
Once I get this certification out of the way, I can transfer to another job in another city, which will greatly decrease the stress and damage to my body. Then I can heal. Then I can move away and go to what’s calling out to me. RMAX. This will also put me in a better financial situation, and allow me easier access to attend the CST seminars, and work more closely with RMAX.
I’m not trying to make excuses, but I’m trying to look at the big picture, despite the problems it will and can cause.
I will use as much RMAX material that I can, in a proper relationship, to the four pillars. However, I need to work on my TMA material, so I can move on and past. I hope this makes sense.
I apologize to all the Coaches/Instructors and Tribe members for my behavior. Please let me nail this damn test, and those that want to mess me up, so I can move on. As far as CST, I will follow the guidelines.
Once again, I apologize to all involved. You have been nothing but supportive.
David A. Versaw